Desperation: Marriage, The End

Desperation: Marriage, The End! It was a horrible marriage and I wanted to leave. I felt I had nowhere to go. How was I going to get out? I calculated how to get my own apartment but I had too many expenses. Maybe saving money for a while but things were getting worse. I felt hopeless. God was looking over me. When I talked to my sister she told me I could move back in. I burst into tears. After everything I had done. I was not expecting her to offer that. I have done some horrible things to her and hurt her very deeply. Desperation: Marriage, The End.

The Key to Leave

The key was when to leave him. I didn’t want to do it while he was in the hospital. I was trying to be nice. Once he came home he was horrible. I would go into another room to be away from him. He must have known something was wrong. He complained about everything. Nothing was right. He was upset he wasn’t medically cleared to drive. He tried to get me to let him do it. When I said no he would get angry. I had a feeling he would hit me if he could. 

I had worked with my sister to come up with a plan to leave. There was a date scheduled. I made a mistake I filled out the change of address form early with the post office. The down side with that is the post office sends a confirmation to your current address. That can be quite dangerous depending on your situation. I pushed up the date and told him I was leaving him. The first thing he did was call his sister. He put on her speaker and she proceeded to yell and threaten me. She called me every name in the book. I kept quiet while she did. He wasn’t going to let me get any of my stuff at first but she told him to let me. 

Desperation: Marriage, The Move

I was so glad to leave. He was making it so difficult by threatening me and it didn’t work. It had worked in the past but this time things were different. He tossed around my clothes. Threw one of my suitcases down the stairs. At one point he tried to act nice and sweet to convince me to stay. This had nothing to do with love. It was all about not wanting to give up a gravy train. He had all kinds of perks with me and he was going to have to give that up. The main bill payer wouldn’t be there anymore. Desperation: Marriage, The End!

I was frazzled after moving out. This was not over. We were still married. I had to trust in God because I did not know what was coming next. What I did know. is that I did not want to be married to him anymore. I just had no idea how much drama it would be. He pulled out all the stops to make it difficult. It was all my fault. I was desperate enough to marry him and put up with him for years. He didn’t make me do that. I made that poor choice. I didn’t have to marry him. Marriage did not make the relationship any better.

Jesus Was There for Me

My sister had warned me for years about my bad relationship choices. She gave me advice that I would not listen to at all. I was resenting the words she would say. The end result is I was blessed to leave him but that didn’t mean it was going to be easy to complete the process. I was learning a lesson for being so disobedient all those years. I felt I deserved it and I was going to take it. It was much better than living with him. During those times I had a comforter to help me get through it. Jesus was there for me and I thank Him for his love. Desperation: Marriage, The End.

Sister Charmaine